Frozen Chosen

My food log for yesterday said, "WTF".  Harvey then said, man yesterday was... like... a day huh? I said, Harvey, that is the day in the life of a fat lady - in fact, it was a light day for me recently.  His face was priceless... because it shouldn't be normal to live and eat that way.  I hope that there is a day when I feel like that is crazy too.  I mean, I only ate one breakfast taco (bacon, egg, potato & cheese), I only ate 1 chicken sandwich at lunch - no ice-cream at all, and I ate a sandwich and soup with a slice of pie for dinner... really.  That's a light day for me.  Wow am I messed up - what this one person (whom I admire a TON) this is obsurdly too much, was a light day.

This year's Frozen Chosen started out a little different.  We had a meeting of course, but this meeting allowed us to talk about our failures and fears and listen to others who haven't done it well.  I've always said that the body lab has always made me feel loved, welcome, supported and challenged. They are now implementing teams - i love teams!  We don't get to pick teams, but I sure hope I'm with Kristi.  She's a HUGE motivator to me.  2 years ago she was a size 12 (i know half of me, but still - if you saw her now) and rocked the frozen chosen and is now training for the open!!!  I want to train for the open. Not this year of course, but maybe.

I need to control my eating issues.  I need to stop putting all of my emotions into food and self sabotage.      I am going to be using this blog a little differently that I have in the past.  I am about to put it out all out there - for me.  I need to work through my emotional issues in order to ever be able to change how I see food.

I  have severe munchy issues.  I have severe bored eating issues.  I have severe portion control issues.  I have severe anger eating issues.  I know, I know - a LOT of issues :)

I'm SUPER excited about today's workout.  I dead lifted 205.  I have to go back and check, but I'm pretty certain that was my max the last time I lifted!  That means its going UpUpUp from there!!! Yesterday I did Grace in under 6 min at 75#.  So instead of going down in weight to pansy out this time, I let the coach push me... yay!  I felt Great lifting heavy today.  I like to lift heavy things :)

Today I ate well! Yay.  I want to stop looking at the scale, but who knows if I can do it.