could have...

gotten a breakfast taco, but I didn't.
gotten off track at lunch, but I didn't.
eaten cake at dinner, but I didn't.
eaten pasta at dinner, but I didn't.
slept in and skipped xfit, but I didn't.

I could have let 40 win again... but I didn't!  I have lost 40 pounds... a lot (19, 25, 30) I hit the 40lbs in November... gained again.  lost a bit and hit it 2 weeks ago... gained again.  I could have done that today - but I didn't.

My closest friend is having heart failure.  She'll make it through, but is just another reminder that I NEED to be healthier every day.  I do not want to fall back into obsessive binge eating and being lazy. I do not want to be in my 40s and have heart failure.  I want to be old - strong - healthy.